Its too hard what you are asking me to do. I can't do it.
And it doesn't matter if one listens to a guided meditation occasionally. My thought is that a combination of text and guided meditaiton with clear instructions will teach best.
I can't do the text version. Did you have to learn from a text when you learnt? How did you learn?
In a guided meditation if the guide talks too much its a problem. What works well is for some verbal instruction then some silent time to try it out. Then some more talk or a gentle reminder to look at htis or that as you go along. It doesn't matter if whilst listening the meditaiotn is interrupted. Its about learning how to do it. Its a learning tool, not an ongoing practice tool.
Look i'm only raising this as a suggestion because most meditaiton instruction i've been exposed to isn't teaching me what to do.
The only person i've been able to learn anything from is goenka. And that's because his instructions were clear, well timed, simple and straightforward.
The texts you are writing are similar in content to what my zen teacher is giving us when we do a group meditation (we haven't had any since last year though as he's away for a few months). I like his timing but he tells us to do too much all at once and i never remember anything. If i had them taped i could learn. Same for you. If yours were taped, I could learn. I believe.
The texts are important. But it requires painstaking effort and a lot of time.
I've got mindfulness in plain english which is a veyr good book. Its pretty good but i think i am ready for the next step up. Certainly i have no problem ever wtih the breath and concentrating on my breath. Taht much i can do.
Its the questioning techniques that i am having trouble with. I can't seem to make myself understood. Is everyone else that much smarter than me? Does everyone forget what it was like to learn or did they just have a different type of learning context (ie such as monastery wiht regular one on one instruction from a teacher, or goenka's highly clear and perfectly timed incremental instruction. )
Look i understand the theory (though i think i'm fast forgetting it ) but i can't think of any questions i should be forumulating to interrogate my experience of the kind that you are writing in your texts.
I know you wish you could thump me right now. But i am telling you how i am experiencing this problem. maybe most others on here already knwo how to do all this. Or maybe they have other supports.
Re goenka - i have noted elsewhere that i don't like his technique so i don't want to do that.